Wednesday, November 30, 2011

"what if..."

Letters to Juliet, Cliche it is, but moved me....

haze quoting the letter from Sophie to Claire to u.... go follow ur heart :)

"'What' and 'if' two words as non-threatening

as words can be....

But put them together side-by-side and they

have the power to haunt you for the

rest of your life....

'What if?..... what if?..... what if?

I don't know how your story ended....

But I know that if what you felt

then was true love then

it's never too late....

If it was true

then

why wouldn't it be true

now?

You need only the courage to

follow your heart...

I don't know what a love like that

feels like...

a love to leave loved

ones for,

a love to cross oceans

for...

but I'd like to believe if I

ever felt it....

I'd have the courage

to seize it , Claire....

And if

you didn't, I hope one day that you

will....

All my love,

Juliet"

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Sunday, November 27, 2011

Dearest Nippa…. (How the brown haired girl I hated so much became my best friend )


Ok here im writing again inspired by how u guys motivated me to write when I complained about bed resting for I don’t know till when…

And since pachi gave me permission to write about Nippa first, here I go…..

Dearest Nippa…. (How the brown haired girl I hated so much became my best friend… )

Can u believe its just 17 more days to go? And a new beggining of your life is gonna start… damn… we are not kids anymore, hold it… we are growing old aren’t we…. :P

I still can remember this tall brown haired girl in school, (grade 3 we were I think) who was standing in front row with socks upto her knees… “we are not allowed to wear socks like that” I wanted to come and tell you… then I thought “maybe teachers are favouring her because she has brown hair”

Then few months later, u joined our school van… you were LOUD… I was horrified, how can be a person so loud… ? I wasn’t the loudest anymore… remember how we had to wait outside school till the van came pickin those slutty Lindsay girls? Once I asked you to hold my water bottle till I tied my shoe lace… that’s how we became friends….

But not for long!!!! Soon there were two teams in the van, one for u and one for me….

We were forced to sit next to each other in the van… last seat, last row…. Remember? i had gotten a new suitcase to take to school (for some crazy reason that was in fashion those days) and the next day u bought the same….. u copied me!!!!!! and the very next day…., I bought a different bag…. Hmpfffff…….

17 more days darling…. I’m excited… for u….hold it, im elated!!!! U should lose that double chin soooon, I agree with aunty on this, take my braces that ll help you starve in style like I did ;)

I couldn’t believe my eyes when we became class mates in grade 9…. The seat next to you was the only one vacant so I had no choice… I thought “crap…..” Didn’t realize it was fate back then….. but now I know it was ;-)

it didn’t take us long to fight again….

U ate all my food… !!!!

u liked Nick Carter!!! Nick??? How could someone like that mushroom haired pumpkin faced guy??

u told me Steven Gately was GAY!!! How could u ever……… say that??? (well you were right and I was heart broken later….. )

Remember that awful fight we had in the middle of the class? Anurika miss had to settle it… I was annoyed and u were outrageous….. the entire class laughed out loud…. I changed seats… and sat next to Hosh and Pachi…

And that’s when I became best friends with pachee…. (now that’s a another story :p)

Its less than 3 weeks….. and ur gonna get married!!! it was one of my dreams.… to see u as a bride next to the man u love….

Grade 10 trip to Kotmale was one of the most unforgettable trips…. apart from me getting slapped (that’s a different story again) that’s when we became enemies to best friends… During the camp fire, remember Anurika miss came and dragged us together in middle of the bon fire and said

“you two better be friends again….. enough of your stubbornness and nonsense”

I remember saying “im sorry… can we be friends again…..?” I couldn’t hear what u said coz the entire class clapped and cheered…. (now im thinking, why did I apologize??? Ur the one who ate my food :p) and seriously what did u tell that time?

but it will be the best apology I made in my life…. It always will be….

So then the brown haired girl became my best friend …

we still had fights…. But luckily for me, u had pachee to fight with since then… and I became the good one between u two ;P (I still am, and I still secretly enjoy the fights between u two…. evil laugh)

You ate our food!!! And instead of me, pachee started fighting with u :p (Hoshala was too innocent to fight and became the innocent victim of gastritis…. )

and we used to talk loudly annoyed, “the way she eats she better marry an iron man one day…. naththan honeymoon eke kota uda thamai“

a best friend can never curse…. even a curse will become a blessing…. and IRON MAN he was…. Who ran a marathon half of a City… handsome enough to suit you, sensible enough to stand by you and strong enough to run half a mile carrying you….. I knew it since the first day that he is the one for u….and didn’t u blast me off when I told u that…. :P nikan neme… with your famous word F…. (Prasad u owe me a HOT bestman for all this praising ;)

The brown haired girl I hated became my best friend…., the best friend I counted on and was protective over…. I still can remember how I get annoyed when boys used to tell “aaaaaaah nangie kondey malakada kaaala da??” I told off a guy at shakthi when we went for classes…. Thank god it soon became a fashion to colour hair or I would have bashed a few guys by now ;)

I still remember how u came to my place on my worst birthday ever when thaththi was sick and I was at home with him…. (since then u always came over every birthday), How u used to listen when I cried… and how u blasted and shutted me up when I didn’t stop crying….

We had to take turns to console and comfort each other…..yell and scream to convince each other…. sometimes 1am in the night or sometimes 6am in the morning…. We grew up… a part of us still are….

We got punished in school, we danced in the rain, we got attacked by crows everyday at canteen, we got harassed by school buses, we fought, we have practically killed each other, we have bitched about all men we knew (oh we do that still), we have laughed till we fell off the bed, we have cried till morning for silly reasons, we have slept together (as in not how it sounds), we have exchanged bras, we have secretly dressed in changing rooms with ugliest cloths and taken pictures to get blasted and almost arrested for shop lifting… and the list will go on….

Dear nippa,

I never thought the brown haired girl I hated so much would be the best friend who would come from Kalubowila to Nugegoda during a lunch break to give me medicine when im sick….

Never imagined that the brown haired girl I hated the guts out was the first person ill call when I got scared in hospital seeing my scans and reports….

I never even dreamed that the brown haired girl would be my best friend and psycho therapist to control me whenever I lost it…. (well this continues….and u still scream to prove a point)

I never thought that the brown haired girl who ate my food back then, would sit on the hospital bed with me and force me to eat that horrible food when I was sick…. (well I know what pachee is thinking, “hey its hospital food that’s why… :P )

I never thought I’d end up being the bridesmaid of that brown haired girl I hated soo much…

Remember how I had to yell at you couple of times to convince you he is the one…. :P (yes Prasad she is stubborn) u owe me a life time for this babe :P (yes yes I know that u will remind me where I should be when I lose track…. :)

Dearest Nippa,

the sister I never had, my best friend who yells at me to put sense to my head,

my psycho therapist who gives me medical definitions so I cant argue back,

my doctor who tells me the truth even though it will freak me out….,

Deciding to become friends with you in grade 10 is one of the best choices iv made in my life….

I’m excited….. I cant wait to get out of bed to go shopping for the big day, to wrap cake, to go for final fittons…. I cant wait…. to see you dressed as the most beautiful bride….

So here I am counting days…. Looking forward…. 17, 16, 15, 14….… I cant wait!!!!

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Saturday, November 19, 2011

true love does exist.... :)


Can anyone give a definition of what true love is? Unconditional? Conditional? Well… people do, but most of it seem too unreal and magical…

We were told that ordinary girls like Cinderella had Prince Charming falling for her….. (well she wasn’t ordinary… she was too pretty so she was hidden or something)… Then stories about a princess kissing a frog and he turns to be a prince… (seriously who were we kidding?? Too bad she didn’t have to kiss every frog in the pond to realize who the right frog is) then when we grew up we learnt about Elizabeth Bennet… who had Mr. Darcy to sweep her off her feet… Then came Mills and Boons, the total “I had a secret childhood past, that was why I was acting like a jerk” stories…. Then we grew up more and believed in Nicholas Sparks… the guy who wrote “a walk to remember” “note book”, “dear john”….

Married couples freak me out, honestly…. Except for a very few blessed ones… the phrases we hear very often “after 5 years love dies away and what you are left with is compatibility…” hmmm… maybe that’s why the corny movie lines doesn’t last… but then, how are we to know?

How does it happen? True love? Does it exist? If it does, will it last? Soul mates exist? I didn’t know….

Well… now I know it does… coz I met this exceptional person who proved me wrong…. A man who has been in love with his wife for the past 35+ years…

Usual start for a common love story… He was a tall dark handsome guy with a dimple and she was one of the sweetest ladies you can ever meet…. they met at work, they became friends… he dropped her home everyday…. Yes and eventually they fell in love… Then their families got to know… after a bit of fighting between families finally they tied the knot…. They were blessed with two daughters… lived happily ever after…. for 30 years… It’s a common love story, I know… until…

In March 2002 she was diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time…. It was hard and it was not going to be easy he knew… she knew it too… this time was hard…. and it was..

He was worried about the two daughters, so was she…. One was about to sit for her AL examinations and the other was a final year student in Law College…. They went on for 7 months… just like that…

In October 2002 she had to undergo an operation…. She had lost weight, she had lost her hair (almost all of it) she was fragile…. but she was in her high spirits… her eyes were bright and her laughter was still live…

But she was suffering…. More than her, he did… When the reports started getting worse day by day, he knew her days were numbered… But he was the strength to her and his daughters…. He was his usual self, he dropped his daughter off at classes, picked her up… made breakfast… made dinner….

And then she started getting worse… One night in October, before she was taken into hospital… before she was unconscious she said “thaththi, mey paara nang maawa goda ganna bari wei”…. He didn’t say anything…. Just smiled….

She lied in ICU for two nights while almost every organ in her body started to fail…. He was still strong, he was concerned about the visitors… he was concerned about his daughters, told them every detail of her last few minutes…

On 9th October evening, doctor came out and asked them all to come in… and he had to switch off the machine… He was still strong, making calls, working every minute till the funeral ended…

Late that night he came near her wardrobe and selected the best white saree she had…. “where is the wig?” And picked her wig… “we need to put the wig … that’s how she will be remembered to everyone…not like this” she had the most beautiful hair, thick black and silky, I realized … He gave her jewellery to the daughters…., “ill keep the wedding ring” he said…

He cried the day of the funeral…. He knelt down near her corpse…. Then stood up and hugged the two daughters….

He never got back to the normal state… he does what he has to do…makes breakfast, makes dinner…. still takes care of his daughters… but he lost the spark, long time back…. He didn’t seem complete… He wasn’t…. he never will be….

After 9 years I visited him in hospital to see him lying on a bed…. While I was watching him, I realized that he has two wedding rings in his hand….. when he was getting his injections, he was clutching his hands….. when I looked closely I realized, one was his and the other belonged to her….

“He never took it off since ammi passed away…” his daughter said….

Now I know, true love does exist… around us, in front of us… everywhere… its just you need to see it, you need to feel it, you need to realize it…. to believe it :)

p.s. - his daughter has been my best friend for the past 21 years….

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