Tuesday, October 20, 2009
when we go through "The Twenties Crisis"....
When we were in our teens we always thought we are facing the toughest phase in life… of all the things we did our greatest worry was how to load credits to the phone coz we are already broke for the month.. When we reach twenties... we are still broke, irrelevant whether we are earning or not… But the least we are worried about is how much of credit left... Ironically although we spent millions of times at that age looking at the phone thinking “ring dammit ring” now we wish we never had credit and sometimes wish it will stop ringing… Screening calls and conveniently ignoring a ringing phone has become a part of our everyday life…
Suddenly we stop following the trends and fads when we realize it doesn’t suit us… we be bold enough to stand by what we believe in… less influential than we ever were but wondering where we are and what the hell we are doing…
In teens we think falling in love was the greatest thing ever… look forward to experience the greatest feeling in the world.. in twenties we never want to fall in again.. we are terrified of getting hurt like before, but secretly dreaming “maybe that perfect partner would suddenly appear…”
We were confused at that time only about the crushes we had.. but now we are confused about ourselves.. our life.. where it leads and where we want to end up… suddenly we realize we are not strong in our beliefs as we did many years ago. Ambitions we had many years ago are not the same anymore.. We realize the priorities are different than what it used to be and suddenly thinking of all these confuse us…
We suddenly realize we are not strong as we were in your teens, we don’t have faith or belief in ourselves coz we have contradicted ourselves from what we wanted… Ambitions, priorities, likes and dislikes have changed… we feel that we are newly born and growing up…
We remember how we fought with some of our friends vowing ourselves we will never talk back.. Suddenly years later we realize we have given up one of our true real friends up just for some stupid reason… and realize its too late to mend things back coz we have missed many years between our lives..
In teens we always think we are right.. we were so judgmental and full of advice.. we bragged about doing the correct thing in life.. but now we realize that all of us make mistakes, we know we do wrong things, but still do coz that’s what we want to do and accept mistakes of other people as a part of life… sometimes support mistakes without being judgmental…
In teens we were terrified of getting low marks leave aside failing in exam or losing a game.. In twenties we accept failing is a part of life, a part of what we are... and actually grateful for failing coz it made us stronger… and finally when we win, we are genuinely happy for the effort we put in…
We are not afraid of falling to the bottom anymore... coz we have already faced the rock bottom… we try to climb out of it with the strength we have left in life… But like in teens we are still afraid of change... we always wonder how life will change and where it will end up…
Only thing common between then and now is we still laugh a lot… maybe we have learned to laugh through tears better than before… It has come to a point where we still laugh when we are sunk in a world of shit and say “shit happens”
We still try to hang on to our dear old teen age… we still surf through facebook, still making it a habit to sneak peak our most favoured profiles ;) coz we still believe a part of us will always be with us..
We value life for what we blamed in teens… how much of a pathetic cases we ended up in, we value our family, our job, our friends and our life than ever before.. We attempt to hang in there when at times when see everything breaking up… we don’t give up.. we just hang in there accepting life as it comes coz you know its not easy…
We have learned to move on.. to let go… to give up.. to compromise.. to sacrifice… to forgive..to forget.. to love, live and laugh like never before…
its all a part of life in twenties.. quarter life crisis.. ;)
No wonder middle aged people are frustrated.. after all mid life crisis might be at least twice as frustrating as this isn’t it ;)
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Once upon a time… my world was all about Stephen Gately….
There is a time in life we get obsessed with a person… Obsessed enough to record his songs, listen to it on and on… then think about how cute he is…
I was just 12 years when I started falling in love with Boyzone… Grade 7 was a crazy time in crazy old days to talk about non stop about your favourite song… “Love me for a Reason” was my favourite song in grade 7 and one of my all time favourites till now… It was when I got obsessed with the cute dark haired guy in Boyzone.. I hated Ronan Keating… I thought it was unfair that he is the lead singer when Steve had the best voice…
The cute guy in Boyzone was my first poster…, my first obsession and my first crush… I always thought backstreet boys were cheap and annoying… it bugged me like nothing when Backstreet Boys made it on top of the charts every week… but tragically almost all my friends liked backstreet boys more… Specially that mushroom idiot nick carter…
I never knew the name of the cute guy is Stephen Gately till I saw the video “Key to my life” I was very insulted and jealous to see him flirting with his teacher… how could he? and in school for a long time, that became a topic… I think rasi and I were the only two loyal fans who argued got pissed off and defended him at that time...
There were times, millions of times we fought over nick carter and Stephen gately… me and nips didn’t speak to each other for sometime because I told her that Nick looked like a girl… and she told me Stephen had a girly voice… But everytime I found a poster or song lyrics of Backstreet Boys I gave them and they found me Posters and lyrics of Boyzone…
I still remember how we all saved pocket money to buy “Smash Hits” mag… How we had a competition of whose song book is the best… and whose poster book was the best… It wasn’t easy to collect song lyrics that time... we had to wait and wait for the Sunday Paper to get lyrics and on Monday it was a fight going on in class about the song…
I was very hurt and heartbroken the day I heard he is GAY.. Obviously nick fans were thrilled to hear the news… but still we never believed it… I still don’t.. he he
That I can see
A change in me
But I won't go back cause that's behind me
And after all
Strong words are spoken
My heart will never be, never be, never be
Never be...
Isn't it a wonder
As a new born baby cries
Isn't it a wonder
With the sweetness in my eyes
And isn't it a wonder
On the crossroads of my life
Isn't it a wonder
Isn't it a wonder to me….
This note is for all the memories he brought to my mind when I heard the shocking news… and to all my crazy friends who shared the crazy memories waaay down the memory lane… love you all…
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